pms revelations

Major pms moment: I woke up this morning, after staying up until 5 , and was realistic about my chances of going and staying awake in class, so I returned to bed. Woke up again around 12 without regret, but I was in tears before I knew it. I returned my bf's earlier wake up calls and we had a long convo, in which I broke down. We talked about a bunch of different things bothering me at the moment, both real and exaggerated by the pms, and I even told him something I've kept to myself for years. No regrets. He is without a doubt my husband. I love him. He helped me to stabilize my mood but I still went through a host of emotions in this one day.

Problem is:

I find myself feeling more and more unhappy with my dream school that it is turning into a nightmare. I am lonely there. I am slightly uncomfortable and intimidated. I'm nervous when I speak to office people. My confidence waivers. I don't even know why. People seem unfriendly now. Even those who sit next to you. Most people just seem cold and distant. Everyone is sizing you up like competition. I am not used to the environment and given my personality, it is both a big disappointment and kind of stifling. I feel like I'm not going to build any connections here. I'd love to meet new people and feel like I belong but it may not happen, and so I have to mentally prepare for it. Now I understand why Helen and Red said they hated this school, and the random girl in the elevator said it too. It is just very lonely. As for classes, I am sitting upfront in all of them, but I am still not in the groove. I feel like my focus is not there at all. I'm hating it so much that I haven't even opened a text book yet. I didn't want to face anything. I came in with all of these expectations like joining clubs and starting something on campus and exchanging smiles with my fellow classmates. Foolishly... I should have just came in with the mentality of coming in and getting out. This is as concrete jungle as it gets. Like them, I should just be about my own business. I know that now... but it doesn't stop me from wanting to make the best out of this experience like I planned. So I made a list of goals to achieve while here, both academic and personal, and I decided to just stick to it and let everything else fall in place. Let the chips fall where they may... Or something like it.